First, my Heart + Soul goes out to all those effected by Hurricane Irma + Harvey.
ALL MY LOVE + PRAYERS are with those of you that are Rebuilding your Lives + all those who are Helping you Rebuild.
Summer has ended and Fall is right around the corner. It’s the perfect time to take stock of my Journey so far this year.
This Summer I didn’t use my Passport (that’s what Instagram + Facebook are for), I didn’t sit on a Beach, I didn’t take a lot of Road trips.
I traveled inward and discovered long hidden parts of my Soul.
I had a Summer Romances with God, Myself, hand-full of my Beloveds, and Sadie Dog.
I sought out ( currently seeking ) new opportunities + ways to lose my Inhibition.
I took care of Sadie Dog ( Tumor Removal + Collapsing Trach ). She’s much better now + her Spirit will not be broken!
There were days that I felt accomplished, motivated, contributing to the World.
Other days, I was disappointed and felt no forward movement at all.
It’s been moments of pain + beauty, of Blessings + Lessons.
Then somewhere in between the Charlottesville Riots and my ‘ Purge + Keep ‘ before 50 …
I discovered something.
I am at an Existential Crossroads.
I’m pretty sure it’s because of the aforementioned Birthday in December, but with all that digging around in my Soul, it was inevitable.
My Human Side (Rational, Thinking, Pragmatic) is in a tug and pull with my Spiritual Side (Faith Filled, Feeling, Visionary).
And I find myself right back where I started when I was in my Teens.
I want to embrace the whole damn World and see all of it.
I know I have to m a k e a living but I also need to create, give back, to help others.
Which road do I take? Do I have to chose just one?
Many days, Many Journeys.
Then somewhere Mid August, things got simpler … and I remembered:
I t ‘ s a l l A R T
It’s the merging of Spirit + Humanity that has underlined everything that I stand for in this life.
It’s why I have always sought out the Poem, the Song, the Still Image in random moments.
It’s the path I’ve always taken, It’s the path I’m always on.
And maybe because of these discoveries or said Birthday …
I have been on the Edit: literally + emotionally.
Living in the same magical place for 13 years with 40 (OH GOSH) years plus worth of S T U F F, it felt empowering to recycle, donate, throw away bits that I don’t need going into the next half of my Life.
The bits that made the cut, it felt good to organize them.
30 Years of Film Pics + Photo Albums …
14 Years of the Ex in one Plastic Bin ( Sadie + I are both happy about that ). Because in the end, aren’t we all just Stories (Thank You Dr. Who)?
30 Years worth of Paper Bits for Art + Visual Journaling into two Plastic Bins.
30 Years of Magazine Pages into Morgues …
A Lifetime of Cards + Letters …
The First time since I made this room Pink, it truly feels organized. These are the Essentials, like if I had to move tomorrow, these would be packed.
… and then the streamlined Cupboard with almost 50 Years worth of bits.
Inevitably with all this unearthing + organizing, I’ve decided to add a few more Projects ( I am the Project Queen ) to my whole Living 49 – 50 Journey:
One. Writing a Third Issue of my Zine, Life As Art.
Issues One + Two …
Cover of Issue Three?
Two. Making a ( Huge ) Art Piece on my Current Journey: I have Reused this Canvas Three Times ( a charm ).
Four. Sharing ( in general ) my wealth of life long bits.
In sharing these bits, I’ve discovered that I have done a lot, seen a lot, made a lot, and have done my best to give back to the World.
Here’s to another 30 plus more years of doing the same!
Five. Realizing I have SO much British Bits/Memories/Photos ( 36 Years! ) that …
L O N D O N I S A L W A Y S C A L L I N G and I need to get back there soon + often ( a life long Project, aheem )!
Six. I’m starting a Bucket List before 5 0 ( I know a bit late ) but in doing so, I realized that most of the things on my list are seeking out those that I want to make amends with + forgive + move forward.
Lastly, it’s my hope that I can get back to my daily Living 49 Project + Motivation Monday Et Al Posts + Vlogging . But, as I’ve mentioned in another Blog Post, n o t feeling Inspired is also part of the Journey … so I will do my best!
Rest assured, when I do share, it will be full of intent + straight from the deepest parts of my Heart.
What more can I can hope for going into Fall, Winter and the beginning of the second half of my Life?
Always BIG LOVE, G xxx
+ If interested go here for Summer Pics!